I (literally) jumped out of bed early this morning reading a message from my dad about my cousin's son who has passed away earlier today. I'm in shock, though I don't really know him, I just couldn't bare the thought of a 9 year-old having to leave this world that early. The thought bothered me all day, but I managed to distract myself and went around the city with my friends for a good few hours after work.
I've realized that you just don't really know what you've got until it's truly gone. I don't know anything about the afterlife, nobody does (I know it's written in holy book(s), but nobody knows for sure what it's like), but life is one of the most precious thing that we often waste carelessly. Time is endless, and the next thing we know, we're just a dust amongst billions, passing by this earth before we turned back into soulless peaces lying to disappear.
I passed by a store called Miracle Sounds, it has olden days instruments, records & radios on display. I studied the faces that used to be famous, the instruments and radios that was once alive and working, getting people on their feet and dance, calling people to sing along, but now they're dead, all of it, just pieces of decoration, attracting people who has no interest in knowing how much of an impact they all had affected the world once upon a time.
I guess what I want to say is, live your life to the fullest. We're in no wish-granting-factory but there isn't anyone else who can give your wish a chance other than yourself. I will try to do what I preach, I often got too scared to do certain things in the scare of that uneasy panic feeling that I get all the time, but I won't give them a chance to let me lie on my death bed with regrets, you shouldn't either.
Whoever you are reading this, I love you!
(it makes me look slightly bigger but it's so comfortable, I love it)
Jeggings from CoolJeans
Boots from Caprice
Bags from TopShop
Nail Polish from Rimmel
I hope I didn't scare you away with this serious post. There's only too few chances to say what you need to say, so say everything on your mind as if you only get to live until tomorrow, but never blame yourself when you make mistakes as if you were to live a thousand more years to redo and fix them.
"Time is like a river of fleeting events, and its current is strong; as soon as something comes into sight, it is swept past us, and something else takes its place, and that too will be swept away."
- Marcus Aurelius
in memory of Ichsan H. Judge, RIP Buddy.