Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Who am I?

All my life, I've hated the fact that I look very different to my friends, neighbors and just almost everybody in my country. People used to call me out as a child (they still do, but I've learned to ignore) assuming I'm a foreigner, teasing me and trying to hold a conversation in foreign languages just because I don't look Indonesian.
There were days that I, as a child, just wanted to flatten my nose, so nobody would pick on me for being different. Thinking back, I regret that I ever had those thoughts, I regret that people were that shallow to annoy me in that sense.
I don't look Indonesian because my grandparents weren't fully Indonesian. My grandfathers were Fully-Pakistani and Indonesian-Pakistani and my grandmas were Chinese-Indo and Dutch-Indo.
There are many relatives living here that are still very much involved in Pakistani customs and traditions. My family has very little portion of that, I value all the little things that I think are interesting and valuable, but for most parts; I have one Saluar-Kamis since I was 14 (I've only worn them twice), I'm not a big fan of Curry, I don't like traditional-sweets that much (I avoid sugar on daily basis) and I don't speak Urdu. I, though, really appreciate that part of my life, I like to sometimes, explore the history and traditions, just for my own amusement. I've realized that it's nothing to be ashamed of, I do have Pakistani blood, that does not mean I'm not Indonesian.
I personally think that the fascinating twist on my blood line should not be able to define what my nationality is, and indeed, it does not.
I am very sorry to say that there are a lot of things that we need to enhance as a nation. I am a very proud Indonesian and I really want to see this country be one of the strongest in the world, but everything must start small, and one of the first steps we need to get into is, "Racism and Stereotypes."
Get rid of all the boundaries we all have, try to see ourselves as ONE.
BHINEKA TUNGGAL IKA. That's what matters.

x, Nessie


  1. Just take minutes tolove your love of this country INDONESIA. i do adore you :)

  2. si sule malah diketawain.

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